and you rip out all I have just to say that you've won;

[hetero]

[ It's Valentine's Day and Dean is on Cas' doorstep, taking a moment to compose himself into the cool kid everyone knows and loves. He pops his dad's leather jacket's collar up; it's too big for him, but it's obvious he's trying hard to fill it.

There's no reason to be nervous. They're friends and they've always been friends. So he finally knocks on the door. ]

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[deism]

[ he opens his mouth with speedy obedience. he had no interest in being taught twice, so he was careful in recording down this information in his mind, an apt student. he wasn't certain why there was tongue, but it didn't feel unnatural. ]

[hetero]

[ He's sure to do what he can to make it pleasurable for Cas, and he vaguely connects that it's the first time he's consciously cared for the other person's pleasure more than his own. It was strange, though he had to admit that kissing Cas was pleasurable enough in itself, if somewhat awkward and new. He massages Cas' tongue with his own before exploring his mouth, taking note of the feeling. ]

[deism]

[ he reached forward to try and stabilize himself, because he is going into very new territory on bambi legs. in the end, he has a fistful of dean's shirt as he tries to take notes inside his head and try to figure out what to do with his tongue, which feels like a dead weight. but it's interesting, and it feels good, and he wouldn't mind more as he pushes his mouth closer, breathing even but hitching occasionally. ]

[hetero]

[ He brings his arms around Cas' back in order to pull him closer like he assumes Cas is trying to do. His arms caress Cas' back, noting not to touch his head, as he deepens the kiss. There's a part of him that worries he's overloading Cas with all of this but he was one to worry too much--he knew Cas would stop him if he didn't like it. He wasn't a baby all the time, after all. ]

[deism]

[ yes let the nerd kiss please!! but he relaxes into it, experimentally trying out kissing by pressing his own tongue against dean's teeth accidentally, and then kicking a little bit as he leans even more forward with his hand bracing himself against the steering wheel to clumsily and hungrily biting softly at him. ]

[hetero]

[ He smiles into the kiss, almost as if holding back laughter. Instead, he makes pleased noises to encourage Cas' boldness, opening his mouth to start sucking on his tongue. He moves a hand back to hold himself up as Cas leans against him, but his other hand travels into his trench coat to just feel. ]

[deism]

[ at this point he does gently break it off to look at the other hand ]

Are you getting laid tonight?

[hetero]

[ He frowns and takes a breath before looking at him in confusion. The hand stays in place. ]

What? I told you, I'm stickin' with you today.

[deism]

Yes.

And I'm asking if you're getting laid tonight.

[hetero]

[ Give him a moment. Yes he is having trouble with this it's hard when you're making out with your best friend OK. ]

You mean--[ He chokes out a laugh. ] I don't think that's up to just me.

[deism]

You wish to ask your brother?

[hetero]

[ This time it's like he's actually coughing up something perhaps it's blood. ]

What--Cas, stop being a dumbass for once in your life. You've got a choice, too.

[deism]

Yes. Consent is important.

[ he presses two fingers to dean's forehead ] Do you consent?

[hetero]

[ He looks up at the fingers, going somewhat cross-eyed. ]

Uh... I... guess. I mean if you're... ready, or whatever. [ He wants to stop being in a chick flick but he is protective of Cas even from himself??? ]

[deism]

[ he leans close, closer, closer, until he can't even talk without brushing his lips against the outside of dean's ear, and he does talk. ]

Only if you say yes. [ and then he smugly sits back to buckle in his seat belt. ]

[hetero]

[ He gapes for probably over a minute, occasionally opening and closing his mouth he is shocked and appalled. Once he is able to talk he sounds like he just got the wind knocked out of him. ]

Where the fuck did you learn that?

[deism]

Learn to do what?

Permission is very important to me, Dean. We may go to our next location, now, or you may drive us to a less public area where we may osculate with some amount of frisking until the sun sets.

[hetero]

[ Continuing staring until he finally turns the right way in the driver's seat..... ]

I can do both, if you're that horny. [ He starts up the car and starts driving to an undisclosed location. ]

[deism]

Is this where you take all your girlfriends? [ asked mildly with some amount of curiosity. this was very exciting. ]

[hetero]

[ He smiles very lightly at that, because he does have a place in mind. ]

Nah. It's a place for you 'n me. [ He reaches out to grab his hand more firmly this time. It is all very sappy and he finds that he kind of likes it a lot. ]

[deism]

Oh. [ swiveling to look down at their hands curiously ]

Should I tell Anna?

[hetero]

No. Fuck, she'd probably kill me. Or get the rest of your family to do it. Have you noticed that your family is insane? [ He shudders somewhat because he can judge other families yes. ]

I mean, Gabe's bad enough, always pranking me and Sammy like a little shit, but have you seen the way Michael looks at me? I swear I've seen him checking out my body more than once.

[deism]

So it's our secret. [ considering it, and giving the equivalent of a shrug without actually shrugging with his eyes ]

Will you tell Sam?

[hetero]

'course not--what are you so desperate to tell?

[deism]

Because I am happy.

[ this time actually do a small half-shrug and patting dean's hand reassuringly ]